can you LJ creators PLEASE have things open into new windows when someone is clearly in the middle of writing an entry??? i just lost a VERY long entry clicking on the ? next to "Tags". i didn't know what the hell it means, but i didn't want to find out at the expense of my entry, dammit. ARGH.

disgruntledly yours,

SMK

i don't want to seem like a sheep jumping on the free speech-squashing bandwagon, but this article just freaked me out.

i may have a few posts for the general public, but from here on out i think most posts are going to be friends only. if you have an issue with that, speak now or forever hold your peace.

SMK :)

you better go away. i don't want to be sick anymore. the throat feels better than yesterday, but still not 100%. so we'll see.

i wanted to write about soemthing right now, but i've forgotten what i was going to write about... i guess i'll have to just write about whatever it was later.

SMK :)

so, my mom, Lois and I are starting this new business. and we were having a meeting last night about it, and during the course of the meeting Lois (a lawyer) told us this saga of how crappy Apple was to her when she ordered a laptop from them, and how they repeatedly lied to her, etc. she sent the loptop she got from them BACK to them to get refunded, and they sent it BACK to her. interesting, i thought. then she says, "well, i don't want it. do you want it?" i was like, "uhhhh, are you serious?" and she was. so what does that mean?

I HAVE A NEW iBOOK G4 WITH WIRELESS INTERNET, A DVD PLAYER, iTUNES, iMOVIE, etc etc etc etc. this is crazy!!! i've definitely had some trouble setting it up (that's why Lois wanted to return it--it definitely has some issues.) but i don't much care! i'll use it for what i'll use it for, and enjoy it while i have it! kind of crazy. who woulda thunk it?


ALSO, i just saw Million Dollar Baby with my brother. you guys, no joke, i want to make movies. i want to make GOOD movies like that. i know i say i want to act and i want to do theater. truth is, i don't know what i want to do for sure, except that i know that i'm most happy when i'm involved in theater or film or (GOOD) tv. this is what i'm meant to do, i think. except that i'm good at other stuff that have nothing to do with it. maybe i need to get my MBA and become the CEO of Warner Brothers or something. or a top executive at Miramax. they'll need someone to take over when Harvey and Barry(?--i just blanked!) croak. horrible thing to say, but it's true. ugh, i just feel so stuck. like i don't know exactly what i want, and i DEFINITELY don't know how to get there. but all i want to do is get up and go...

someone help...

it is now 49 degrees in here.

i am not kidding. and i am ready to walk off this job right now.

i kid you not. they are doing construction at Fenway(big surprise), and there is no wall in our office. ok, a bit of an exaggeration. there is one thin wall where there used to be two. so not only do we constantly hear the banging and thuding of jackhammers, screaming of saws, and yelling of construction workers, but now it is also subzero temperatures in here. i kid you not--we are ALL wearing our coats, hats, gloves. well, i'm not, because i can't type with them on. but anyway, it is miserable, and i'm ready to walk right now. no joke. READY TO WALK. i mean, my fingers are practically numb. they are ghost white.

THIS IS RIDICULOUS, and it BLOWS.

this.

(btw, i'm not aggravated in general, just when i think about W and this STUPID war we are fighting.)

i got it from Anindita's Andrew, and i think it is right on.

off to lunch. i'm sooooo hungry.

SMK :)

I wondered what this thing would come up with... :P


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WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS. AGAIN.

i'll be honest with you, this game felt just like very other game. they played exactly how they always play, and i expected them to win. so while i knew Rodney (and Deion and Tedi) would come up big, i wasn't whooping quite as much as my brother when they won. it's how it's SUPPOSED to be.

my, i hope that's not as arrogant sounding as i think it is. but you know what i mean. right?

anyway, so proud of my boys. now let's see if my other boys can also repeat. come on people, now's the time to start praying for that one...

Boston is an awesome place to live. man, i love this town. :)

SMK :)

GO SEE RAY.

really, and truly, one of the most magnificent performances i've seen. i know Jamie was playing a real person, so there is an element of mimicry there, but it was more like channeling. seriously, so good. and there are many other awesome performances in the movie as well. and you can't beat the music. really REALLY good. go see it.

g'night, all.

SMK :)

You scored as Sadistic Humour. Congratulations, you scored Sadistic Humour. You find the little things in life to be funny, and have a great sense of humour, whether it's stupid or dark. You're probably young, and older people don't understand why it's all so fucking hillarious. Either way, check out: Clerks, Mallrats, Napoleon Dynamite, Wayne's World. </td> Sadistic Humour 95% Mindfuck 80% Artistic 70% Drama/Suspense 60% Romantic Comedy 60% Sci-Fi/Fantasy 55% Mindless Action Flick 40% Movie Recommendation. created with QuizFarm.com

i don't think this is always the way i feel about films, but it's the way i'm feeling right now, i guess! I'll try again another day...

SMK :)

later
thinking back, it was really easy to manipulate that thing. i bet i could purposefully make it come out a certain way. i'm going to try to make it come out that i'm all about the mindless action:

You scored as Mindless Action Flick. Congratulations! You'll blow fifteen bucks on the worst script ever as long as there's lots of guns, explosions, car chases, kung fu, and unrealistically happy endings. Reality means nothing to you! I don't know you but just lost all respect for you! Check out: Die Hard, Fast and the Furious, Charlie's Angels (they can fly!), Biker Boyz. </td> Sci-Fi/Fantasy 85% Mindless Action Flick 85% Mindfuck 40% Sadistic Humour 35% Drama/Suspense 20% Romantic Comedy 5% Artistic 5% Movie Recommendation. created with QuizFarm.com

see? easy as pie. ;)

he is hilarious. he just showed a picture of Laura Bush riding a mechanical bull.

nuff said. LOVE that guy.

SMK :)

"You've opened it?! Good Luck You have just been
DEATHWISHED Tonight at midnight your true love
will realize they like you. something good will
happen to you at 1:00-4:00 pm tommorow, it could
be anywere.Get ready for the biggest shock in
your life. if you break this chain u will be cursed
with relationship problems for the next 10yrs. post
this within 15 mins

Sorry guys...I don't need
anymore relationship problems..."

and i don't either, so consider this "posted".


(it doesn't say "email this within 15 mins". so there. :P)

so i very much do NOT want to look a gift horse in the mouth (and knock on wood and all of that), but i am here at work to do the accessible part of the sale for individual games today, and NO ONE IS CALLING. and amazingly, NO ONE SHOWED UP HERE THIS MORNING. (!!!) i guess our press release worked this time around! we released it with plenty of time for people to actually read it and understand that we are not selling here at the park, and all the scammers are not calling in and lying saying that they need accessible seating when they don't. so we are SO HAPPY about how this sale is going. Mike Dee (big machah here at the Red Sox) was just here with his two boys, and we were all marveling at how well it was going.

(later)

AND, just now, Larry Lucchino and his assistant just came down here (in sweats and all) to check in about how it's all going. like us, they were extremely pleasantly surprised, and were awed with how well it's going. it's amazing when we don't have people come down here in person, and when we have only accessible calls on our number. AND, in addition, i gave Larry the amazing letter that i wrote to him many weeks ago, and haven't had the time ("or the nerve," i admitted) to come up to his office to give it to him. he smiled and said OK, looked at the envelope, chuckled, and bopped me on the head with it before he left. yes, Larry Lucchino just bopped me on the head not too long ago. :P

anyway, it's been a pretty easy day so far, and do no think for one minute that i am taking it for granted. it is fabulous. thank the lord. i also just had my free lunch from Brown Sugar. (mmmmm, but now i feel gross cuz i at the whole thing.) and tonight i will go see Spunk and then go par-tay with my friends from the African American Theater Festival. woohoo! can't wait!

SMK :)

so, i'm still at work because i'm waiting for a nurse to call me back about the weird insect bite type thing i have on my leg. i called at about 5:50, so that was 20 mins ago. i know i'm being impatient, but if they aren't going to see me tonight, i should just go home. Erin is coming over tonight to watch Simple Life and Alias. fun! i also need to stop in to CVS if possible to buy lotion and exchange the Crest White Strips I bought. I bought the regular kind, and I WANTED the premium kind. and besides, it's only 4 more bucks. not bad. so here i sit, waiting for the nurse to call.

do you think it would be obnoxious for me to call back and ask if they think i'd get seen tonight or not? again, if not, i could start the trek home... and the next bus is probably leaving now, pretty much. (it's a 6pm bus, but they've all been late since the snow...)

anyway, i don't have much to say... maybe i'll see if i have any more pictures to download while i'm here. yeah, that's what i'll do. man, i'm bored. but tonight i finally see Erin! it's been, like, two months practically!!! too long. so yay!!!

SMK :)

Later

The nurse just called, i don't need to be seen tonight, i'll wait until tomorrow. the next bus is at 6:25, so i think i'll do a little picture stuff before i wrap up to go outside.

well, it isn't right now, but it's about to be again. we got about 28 inches of snow or something on Saturday and Sunday, and we're supposed to get 6-9 more tonight into tomorrow. i am NOT looking forward to this. this is the kind of thing that REALLY makes me want to stay home. and since i haven't felt totally better yet, the desire to stay home is intensified. i barely made it out of bed today. and then when i got to work i concentrated on working so hard that i didn't take a break to get water to drink or to go to the bathroom. so i'm dehydrated and i just overall feel kind of funny.

i started the Accutane tonight, so forthcoming will be the extremely dry skin. and beyond that, i hope there won't be any severe side effects. and i hope it works, and i will never have to deal with acne again. it's been a long, tough battle, and i should have done this years ago, before i got al these scars. but the Accutane is the first step, and depending on how it goes, maybe some other cosmetic-type treatments. (i'm thinking dermabrasion to see if some of the scars might go away... we'll see.) anyway, the point is that i'm sick of feeling crappy about it, and i'm doing something i should have done a long time ago. wish me luck. now all i need to do is get in shape and lose about 30 pounds, and i'd feel REALLY good about myself.

so, part of me hopes that there's so much snow that i don't have to go to work, and part of me realizes how badly i need the money. if i could only get a better paying job that i actually enjoy at the Sox, maybe it wouldn't be such a struggle to go to work. time to bug Marcell again about asking Vanessa what's up--if there'll be anything opening up in Community Relations or if i can intern or something in the meantime... GODS, LOOKS DOWN ON ME AND HELP ME WITH THIS THING I KEEP WANTING AND ASKING TO HAVE HAPPEN!!! (i thought an appeal to the gods couldn't hurt at this point...)

ok, off to bed for me, after i finish watching Hilary Swank on Letterman. she's amazing. i want to be like her some day...

work is a little painfully boring today. but i did have lunch with my friend Christina, and we had a lot of fun. i also recapped the shows "Gilmore Girls" and "High School Reunion" for this woman who works in the finance department. it was hilarious. there were these old white guys coming in and out, which made me feel like an 11-year-old talking about these shows. but she really wanted to know what happened, so i told her. :P

anyway, today i am feeling good because i look hot, and have gotten many compliments on my outfit. i am wearing a black skirt, white button down, with a bright pink sweater-y poncho over it. (along with one of my new pairs of earrings i got for Christmas.) i've gotten many compliments about my poncho, including one from the woman who i would like to work for here at the Sox (who is stylin' all the time, i might add), so that made me feel SUPER!!! it's amazing what looking good will do for ya. just gives you a whole new attitude. i think my clothing purchases over Christmas for work were great purchases. made some good decisions. GO ME! : )

i just want to inform you all that my show opens on Tuesday. i am going to be in a short play as part of the African American Theater Festival in Boston. it is going to take place at the 350-seat Wimberly Theater at the new Calderwood Pavilion at the BCA. this theater is in cahoots with the Huntington Theatre, one of the most respected theaters in Boston! this is very exciting. tickets are going fast, so either call the Box Office or get them online. (Just click on the link for the Festival above!) i hope that some of you will come and see me (or my mom!), and that even if you can't come and see me that you will come out and support the festival at some point. there are a lot of really talented actors and really great pieces in the festival. DON'T MISS IT!!!

so i think that's all i have to say for now. perhaps i will add more later. ciao bellas!

SMK : )

i know this is a little late in coming, but better late than never, right? ; )

so, after much hemming and hawing about what to do for New Year's, i decided it would be more exciting and probably a cool experience to head down to the Hamptons with Andrew to hang out with a whole bunch of people i didn't know. (this, of course, is not meant to offend my friends Al and Katie, who had invited me up to Al's place in VT. but it was going to be just us and Abby, and i thought this other option was a bit more adventurous. so off i went.)

at the last minute i reached Lauren about staying over with her on Thursday night, and so Andrew and i drove to NYC, met up with his cousin and hung out for a bit, and then i met Lauren on the subway platform at 33rd and Park. (weird that it's not 33rd and Lex, but it's not.) we headed to her apartment in Brooklyn, ordered falafel sandwiches, and watched Heathers on TV. seriously? ONE OF THE WEIRDEST MOVIES I HAVE EVER SEEN. can't say i liked it at all. i laughed at it, but not in a good way.

anyway, in the morning Lauren and Andrew and i met up at this restaurant called 7A for brunch. (not surprisingly it is located at the corner of 7th street and Avenue A in the East Village.) we waited a long time cuz it was busy, and then our waiter (who looked like he might be 14) forgot to put in our order, so we waited longer, which was fine because we got the meal for FREE. yes, an omlete, bacon, hot chocolate with whipped cream, all for free. not bad.

after we were done, we parted with Lauren and Andrew and i headed out to his cousins' house. (there was some possiblility that Abby was going to take a bus or a plane to come and join, but that morning she called Andrew to say that her apartment in DC had been broken into and she was heading back home. it turns out her roomie's crazy ex played a tasteless joke on them using his key, and nothing was actually stolen... aaaaanyway...) Andrews' cousins' place is across the street from what was Billy Joel's house and is now Jerry Seinfeld's, this house was not too over the top, but was really nice. a great place to gather a lot of friends and hang out. the rest of the weekend was spent playing games such as Mafia and poker, watching weird movies and Chappelle's show, eating a great deal of food, drinking, walking on the beach, playing or watching football, or reading. pretty much my ideal bunch of activities. it was a good time. and they were good people. his cousins Dan and Jeremy were a RIOT. seriously hilarious people. and very smart. it was easy to tell that Andrew was related to these people. anyway, they were all very kind to me, and i had a good time. a good time was had by all. :)

and a bonus-- instead of having to take an expensive bus into Manhattan and then an inexpensive bus to Boston, i got a ride from two of Dan's friends, who are architects here in Boston. we took these mini-ferries for part of the ride, and then took this bigger ferry from Green Point (or something) to New London. or somewhere. i forget. but it was neat. certainly broke up the drive. AND these people are cool, and had a laptop that played DVDs SOOOOOO we watched Garden State while waiting for the ferry, and then the rest of it on the rest of the drive home! the first time i had watched a movie in a car. it was weird. but good. obviously the person driving was not watching, but merely listening--she had seen it already a few times. but anyway, it was cool. totally make the time pass. i looked up and we were home! these people were also super cool, and i was grateful to them for saving me the dough of the bus. (i of course gave them $ for gas and ferries, but it still added up to less than the buses would have.) so that was that.

by the time i got home i was too tired to pack all my shit by myself and head back to my apartment, so i stayed in Wellesley and just drove in to work. it could not have been simpler--it took about 20-25 minutes! i think people were still on vacation... if i recall correctly, i did get a parking ticket that day, but it's ok. only $25. that night i drove myself to my apt for dinner, to rehearsal, and then back home to Wellesley where my awesome mom helped me load everything into the car and unload it again at my apartment. (all of this in the pouring rain. have i mentioned that my mom is the bestest?) and then i collapsed into bed.

and thus ends the story of New Year's and the ensuing craziness. it was a unique experience, and good time! a fun way to begin the new year.

SMK :)

i know i said i would post about it, but then i was sick on Friday at home and then Saturday i had a lot of rehearsal, and same with Sunday. when i wasn't rehearsing, i was doing errands at home (including laundry--gasp! and groceries--double gasp!) or going on a brief shopping expedition with my mom. it was brief because the stores were mostly closed when we got to them, so my mom didn't get to do the returning she wanted to do. so i think she did it today. anyway, this morning was a doozy. i remembered i had a Dr's appt (about the Acutane, not being sick) at the last possible moment, made arrangements to get a car from my dad on his way IN to the city for an appointment for him. i was late thanks to the trains, which made him late, and then when i got there they told me my appointment had been cancelled. they squeezed me in, but upon hearing how sick i've been and that my blood levels are not normal yet, my dermatologist told me she wouldn't prescribe me the meds until my blood was back to normal. lord only knows when THAT will be. and then beyond that, she WON'T prescribe it after March due to the high level of sunlight sensitivity. so i might be screwed. we shall see.

anyway, got to work around noon, and actually RAN INTO MY DAD on his way to the train from his appt. pretty funny. and i've been at work ever since. so that was my day. now i have to go catch the bus. byebye!

SMK :)

i'm sick. AGAIN. for the THIRD TIME in the last two months. this BLOWS. i am going to see my doctor AGAIN in a little while. my mom is going to pick me up on her way out of Boston so i don't have to take the T in the snow. she's the BESTEST. SERIOUSLY. but ugh. i'm ready for the sickness to be overwith.

so, i was recently told that i don't update this thing enough. (Christina!) :P i will try to do better. it's just weird writing about events in your personal life at work when you probably should be doing other things. like working. hehe. but things are slow this week at work, and i'm grateful for it.

i never really posted about New Year's, but i think i'll make that a separate entry. so that it at least APPEARS that i post a lot in this thing. :P

other than that boring stuff, it's snowing today. it snowed during the day yesterday, but didn't amount to much, and then snowed overnight last night. a couple of inches, maybe 3. it looked pretty on the lawns, but it's already dirty, slushy and gross on the roads. ahh well. and some jackass in a jeep drove by me and splashed icky slush on me as i walked from the T stop this morning. and yes, i yelled at him outloud. not particularly loudly, so i don't think anyone really heard, but i definitely called him an asshole. :P and i was about 20 mins late because i never saw the bus (which was either because it never came due to the snow, or that i somehow missed it in the 15 seconds it takes for me to walk down my back stairs and out the door. either way, booooo.) so i cut my losses and headed for the T, but ended up waiting about 10 minutes for that. i called my boss and told her, but still felt horribly guilty about it.

i'm afraid my boss is going to tell me in my evaluation that i need to do better about getting here on time. which is funny, because i'm actually pretty rarely late, and it's pretty much always due to bus issues out of my control, BUT i think that it APPEARS that that i am "late" because many of my co-workers get here EXTREMELY early. like 45 minutes early. which i also did for a while, but then i found out that we don't get paid until 10am anyway, so what's the point? i mean, if i could rack up some more hours (read: more MONEY) by coming in early, i totally would. but if we DON'T GET PAID until 10, then there's no reason to come in early. and thus, i don't. but the point of all this is that i'm afraid it looks bad, and so i'm afraid she's going to call me out on it. so i say boo.

i'm not too excited about this evaluation thing. i'm feeling this pre-emptive fear and guilt that she's going to tell me that my performance has declined, and that she's super disappointed. i would agree, it has. this job wears on you, and it's hard to keep up the effort when you are getting paid so little and you're not doing anything even remotely interesting to you. (except that you work for the Wold Champions.) but you KNOW that if you were doing something more interesting to you, and using your skills and talents appropriately, you'd automatically put more effort in. so, it's a catch 22. performance has declined due to jaded-ness and weariness, but it would increase if i was doing something i wanted to be doing, but in order to be hired for something else, performance needs to be extremely high. UGH. the conundrum that is my life.

ok, enough for now. i'll post about New Year's tomorrow or something.

SMK : )